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Monday, May 05, 2014

Waving to the sun


Samuelle sits for his final portrait waving to the light, or me...or......

Post Script 5/6/14: We got some of the lab work back. It is definitive that Samulel was suffering from cancer, and it is helpful to know this. We could not have done better for him and his suffering is over.

Samuelle flew off, with our help around ten this morning. I am so relieved for him. Before I took him to the vet for his final leap, I brought him to the light of the windows so he could possibly see Earth one more time, or something that might look familiar. He spent the night in a crate next to me for safety, and it was a hard night. While he probably wasn't seeing well in the end, I do think there were certain sensations-such as bright light- that he could respond too. I sat him in a familiar chair so he could look out a window, and took his final portrait.

He raised his head and paws up, and moved his paw in waving fashion. As a writer, and one with a vivid story telling imagination, it is tempting to believe he was waving goodbye to the light, or me. But I guess I could then be accused of...Disneyizing my life. The scientists in the mix or pragmatists will say he was responding to stimuli.

Well, I was there, and I felt it was both. I took him out and put his face in some leaves, and then off we went to the vet.

What a fighter, but he was ready for this journey, as were we. After he was gone, my vet and I examined his interior mouth and throat again. The roof of his mouth had become more swollen, and the lower throat was hard instead of soft. We really feel like there was most likely a growth of some kind pressing down on his nasals and entire left side. The lab tests might tell us more clues, but for now, there is no definitive answer, except that he was fine cat who lived many years longer because he happened to walk onto Apifera instead of another surrounding property that might not have had the means to help him.

Did he come here because he had heard the stories of this place, or did I somehow invite him without knowing, without words-just as I have always invited many creatures here before I have laid eyes on them. Some of you might now be saying - now that is really story telling, but I know for a fact it has happened many times.

Goodbye Samuelle Noel! You were the most brave soldier. May you take off your boots now and lay in the sun, the same sun that will shine down into my studio where we so often spent the day together.

10 comments:

carin.c said...

So sorry for your loss but glad he is no longer in pain. I am sure he was very happy with you at Apifera.

kate said...

beautiful Samuelle. take care Katherine and all Samuelle's friends....

NancyGeneArmstrong said...

Tearful post but not of total sadness -of the beauty of his passage-yes it was a wave goodbye-loved and missed for the part he played at Apifera.

Kim said...

I've had the privilege to know many fine cats, and I've grown increasingly certain that they sense things, and think in ways that we cannot fathom. Perhaps Samuelle could sense, "ah, here is a safe place, the people here are kind and their hearts are open to my kind". He was a gorgeous one.

woolyredrug said...

So sorry for your loss

ullam said...

A fine cat indeed! Synchronicity surely played a role in bringing the two of you together... blessings.

maccandace said...

Goodbye, Samuelle, it is so often a relief, as you said. I have felt that many times in similar situations.

Lurena Sheary Williamson said...

God speed Samuelle. May your spirit still dwell in the sun lite windows of Apifera.

Corrine at sparkledaysstudio.com said...

Our animal brothers and sisters know where the good people live...luckily Samuelle found you all. xox

deb said...

precious Samuelle ~ may your spirit soar ♥

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